Last Friday — the 3rd of July — I wrote my last exam and with that finished the school I used to go to for the past two years. I don not know my marks yet and have no school leaving certificate in hands yet but still I am ready to go on.

The past days since the exam were pretty low riding. I started to get some work done which was stuck due to learning for the final exam — mostly picture editing plus some web-design. Till now I have to recall that days without going to school and just doing own stuff — plus some work that needs to get done, like cooking — is much less productive and I have to get used to this workflow cause I will have to get many things done in the upcoming 8 to 10 weeks. I just can not slow down or get less done. But that should not be the topic of this post.

But what else? Well I thought about the past years of school which were pretty much in the field of my interests — if you cross out photography and web-design. It was geeky and somehow techie too. In the end it will come down to a technical assistant of informatics. But is that really what I want in the end to be?

Well, for sure it is not the end of my education! I am moving on to attempt the in germany so called ‘Berufsoberschule’ which is one year of school to achieve the grade to attempt college afterwards. But what than? I still don not know what I really want and especially what I can achieve.

The problem is that I know what I love doing. I know the tools I love using. I know the things I’m passionate about. But for the life of me, I cannot find a hole that fits me.

~ Michael Mistretta

That post, by Michael Mistretta called Digging Holes, describes the problem really well. The problem of knowing what the passions are and not knowing how to life them.

For me the next life changing decisions are going to be weather or not to attempt college, go on freelance or building an own business in spare time or just go out and search a job out there. While the last one is the least I would choose. At the moment attempting college plus going on freelance / building an own business is the most appealing thought.

That are just some quick brainstorming for the feature, I don not know the feature and do not know weather or not they will change rapidly in some weeks but for now, finishing one school and going on to the next, I think it is worth looking into what I want to do in life. For now the most important I need to do now is that I get the next year of school done in a great way so that I get an degree to got to college and than can go study. Till than I have time to decide what I want to achieve!

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