For as long as I can remember, I’ve been a tinkerer. Some of my fondest memories of my childhood involve taking apart my toys, figuring out how they worked, and putting them back together.

~ Josh

As far I can tell, I was pretty much like that. But much more of a problem is the second part.

I’ve given up almost everything serious that I’ve attempted to do. Over the past few months, I’ve been trying to discover a reason for this so I can try to remedy it. When it really comes down to it, there are only a few very specific things that come naturally to me, and when I encounter something that’s difficult or that I can’t pick up and perfect right away, I get very discouraged and give it up.

~ Josh

That is pretty much also my problem. Often I think about others, and what they do and that they do it all life long. I am not such a person. I start many things, have many ideas and try different things all at once. All that is sometimes very confusing and also that way it is hard to get one great thing done.

Over the past I tried to get more focused and to concentrate on one thing but that did not happen. I am still doing several things all at once. And one thing I hate about it is that it influences my marks at school — which really is bad!

One reason I keep telling me is that I am still pretty young and that it is OK to try different things. Still, I would like to get one thing that really works and that I love.

In the end I come down to minimize the things around me. Stop project I do not think are worth the effort and try to focus on the things I like. Even than that are to many different. So I start to stop things I like the least. And than — not that much later — I just start one new thing.

I hope that gets better over the next weeks as I am going to — again — have some final exams. And that I will be able to concentrate on that. Afterwards I hope that I can find something I really like to work on (but still I will have one more year of school which needs to be done).

I will see how things will turn out!